madimpossibledreamer

I forgot this existed tbh

Main Points:
Buffy the Vampire Slayer/Assassin's Creed/possibly Mummy??/Supernatural Dialoguefic Drabble
universe first introduced in primordium
Summary: faster to read
Word Count: 100
Pairing: Dean/Xander
xander does not actually appear in this part

         “Oh my God, Dean. I did not need to see this. I did not need to touch this. This did not need to be next to my stuff.”
         “What, Samantha, you’ve never seen one before?”
         “It’s not—Dean, I’m happy you’re happy, and you don’t need to be defensive about that. This is a good thing. I just don’t want to know the details of you and Xander and I am working on forgetting...all this. Take care of it, don’t put it in my bag again, and let me know if I need to be…somewhere else for a bit, okay?”

Happy New Year's Eve!

I was thinking about it
and Jotaro and Dean are kind of similar
They use a hyper masculine, stoic, overviolent manner to hide their real feelings (Dean's worse about hiding them, though if you rewatch/reread SDC you can see it in small moments like Jotaro's hand shaking when they're in the room with his mom). Also sarcastic one-liners and the facade of their favorite fictional characters, including (this is the funny bit) cowboys.  The fact that they're big fluffy nerds inside. Jotaro goes on to own the nerd stuff, at least.  Hopefully Dean does too.  (you know, in alternate canon.)

(too lazy to look up actual name, I borrowed it from the library and have very little to say)

to john winchester you're still a jerkface but you'd be surprised the number of people who are like 'you've got to be a robot at work'

would you look at that very brief supernatural nuance

hey i know that name from Papa Midnite

and Samedi from tsw

also know a lot of this stuff just from general places (smt, etc)

dean from reading your dad's diary it's kind of obvious he's off his rocker he has no sense of organization or story

confirmed; even really weird crossovers continue to be less weird than jealousyfree!Xander

Main Points:
Buffy the Vampire Slayer/Assassin's Creed/possibly Mummy??/Supernatural
universe first introduced in primordium
follow-up to Favors Given and Received
Summary: Xander tries to help.
Word Count: 415
dean does not actually appear in this part

( family, extended )

 

i'll get to posting actual things when i finish them
i just...
i was recently thinking about the flash, and i know this isn't news to anyone, but i just had this full-blown revelation of 'oh, oh yeah, we totally should have seen the absolute fail of supernatural finale coming, the cw is terrible at writing anything and manages to problematize everything'
i can't even remember how many seasons of The Flash i watched but i think it was two.  i really loved it at the time, but there was something that made me uneasy and i couldn't quite put my finger on it.  except now, thinking back on it, i really really can.

warnings: pseudo-incest, problematic hollywood romance tropes, general cw problematic shenanigans, tokenism, possible spoilers
...it also occurred to me that The CW shares its initials with Content Warning and i now don't care what it actually stands for as of this moment they forever stand for Content Warning.  it's very nice of them to point out what you'll get watching any of their shows.  i don't think it's on purpose because i think they'd make fun of the need for them but it's unintentionally helpful.

( rant under cut )

so, if you think you've seen this before, or think you'll see it again, you're probably right on both accounts.  because this is a super important reminder.
sometimes I'll feel super unmotivated, writing.  sometimes i'll feel like my current chapter is trash or that I'm not good enough, as a writer.
and then i'll check my email and find someone's given my chapter a kudos (ao3) or that sunnydale herald continues to rec my stuff (that'll never stop making me smile) or whatever.
and then i'll remember that for however mediocre a current chapter is, or how the depression/anxiety voices try to weigh me down, or it feels like nobody's reading and i'm just sending words into an endless void...i haven't written the supernatural finale.  i haven't written captain america as a nazi.  i didn't write the devil may cry reboot, and i certainly haven't followed their "stellar pr example".  i didn't write the joss whedon avengers movies, or his failed wonder woman script.  i definitely am not the grand moff.  i'd like to think i write actual character arcs and plot arcs unlike the miraculous writers. 
i welcome my whole audience (except if you think other people don't deserve to have rights, get out, and may the door smack you on your way out).  i don't make fun of interpretations (okay, i haven't seen any, but even if i disagreed i would just say 'that wasn't intended' or OH NO THAT WASN'T INTENDED LET ME FIX THAT) or tell my audience they're seeing things. 
i don't write things so bad that a whole conspiracy coalesces around the utter failure that is that piece of writing.  i didn't write an offensive civil rights movement analogue that was meant to be a civil rights movement analogue until people said 'wait?? maybe that's in bad taste???' and then it wasn't a civil rights movement analogue and if you saw that you were crazy.  i try to go more complex and not just write off people particularly if they happen to be more villainous-coded, because, you know, subverting expectations with good writing is a good thing.  (also my brother who is awesome is slytherin, some of my best friends from college are slytherin and i like snakes, i don't know why you expected me to go anywhere else with that.  i'm not declaring the outcasts evil because that's just not cool.  also, i'm a hufflepuff so puffing up and fighting for the people i care for is a thing i do.)  i didn't turn james t kirk into the pop culture caricature everyone thought he was.  (and then he fought it anyway.  fight the good fight, buddy.) 
maybe i had some writing choices that weren't the best.  let's be honest, some of our taste when we were younger is terrible.  and sometimes we love terrible things because nothing's perfect and picking through the leavings of terribly written stories or badly mangled stories or a no man's land of isms or good idea poor execution stories that make us weep in frustration for the better show/book/game that we all collectively hallucinated along the way is all we have.  but we should also take heart that we made it better.  we're not just dreamers, because we see the flaws, and we bring them up not to tear others down but to remind ourselves of the pitfalls, we bring them up because these are conversations worth having, we bring them up because love this stuff and we want to analyze that the writers did so good but they let us down here, and how? why?
anyway, reminding yourself of all the terrible writing decisions that have been made in things you love, and also reminding yourself that you are doing everything you can to avoid writing such things, does wonders for your self-esteem as a writer.  also, when you mess up, there's always editing.  and like a responsible author you do sit down, go 'wait, i should change this' or, if someone told you, 'wait, they're right', edit it, and there you go.  and your interpretation is not wrong, and you should not feel bad for engaging in the text because people go to school to learn to do what you're doing, and you're all important.

edit: i don't want to take out the stuff with harry potter because I don't want to erase history and to some extent want to leave it as a screw you rowling.  anybody in any house with any decency would tear down your precious status quo, and yes, your pedestal with it.  but to continue with the theme: i didn't write 'slavery is okay with the right owners, maybe' and 'most fat people are evil' and 'being ultrafeminine or having masculine features is also a sign of evil in female characters'.  i also didn't turn out to be a massive piece of shit.  so this makes me happier about even my worst writing.  and yes, there are bits i'm not happy with.  several in self-made hero, actually, but even then i don't think i've ever failed as badly as rowling, or whedon, or the grand moff, or astruc, or nick spencer.  and as horrible as that is, as a writer that's a comforting thought.  i'll reiterate, though--please, when i make a mistake, tell me!  i want to improve, unlike these jerks.

Canon changed in the merge so Azrael’s blade is the only thing that can permanently kill Angels, and an Angel Blade only temporarily banishes them. 
Only extra powerful wings (like those of Archangels) can manifest physically, though only one of the sets of wings can do so (which is why most angels are depicted with only one set).
They’re still twins, but Michael is the older twin.  I’d say by a few minutes, but who knows what that means in celestial time.
Side characters from Lucifer are mentioned, but I don't think you have to watch the show to understand what's going on.  Probably the only relevant thing to mention is that Lucifer owns a club.

Happy Thanksgiving (if you celebrate it, and otherwise have a great day)!  I guess if you really wanted, you could see this as a holiday fic somehow...

New notes, because of the Supernatural Ending: Chuck wrote Lucifer to be the villain of his story.  But he doesn't have to follow the script.

Main Points:
Supernatural AU (now a Lucifer crossover!)
Summary: Michael begs Lucifer for help.
Word Count: 1743
Rating: Teen

 

( a tense reunion )

 

okay also thinking about it and having read more meta
part of it is also that xander's so insecure, like dean
dean's much, much better at pretending he's machohetero
but it's only in later seasons xander figures out his strengths are 'not machohetero' i.e. the power of the heart comfortador! and he's so much more comfortable with himself this way (though he's still got issues *coughAnyacough*) that he has to work through. 
maybe it's just his dad/bullies have made insinuations enough that he feels like he has to respond.  maybe.  there are some different reasons people can be defensive about their sexuality.  (alternate interpretations do exist...but also i feel i should remind everyone that it was either willow or xander they were thinking of making 'gay' and to that i say ¿Por qué no los dos?  So they can be lgbtq+ buddies, and stronger friends (because other than Bollywood and fighting monsters, there's not much shown that they have in common).  (Though have it different.  Like, maybe Willow's actually demisexual, or after some introspection she decides she's actually effectively lesbian aka, like, a 5 on the Kinsey scale, where Xander's bi or pretty close to it?  Just throwing that out there) So until that writing decision was made they were both Schrodinger's 'gay'.)

also lo siento I have this habit of losing track of my parentheses and using way too many. i think i've wrangled them all now but lemme know if i missed one

It's been forever since I've written for this one (well...not as long as for The Joker Game. I swear I'm getting to that. Eventually.)
I don't remember why I ended up checking out Lucifer, but it's fun. The actor is very compelling, even if I'm more on board for the mythology than the endgame romance stuff (then again, that's my usual m.o.). I do have to say, though, I'm weirded out at the lack of Supernatural crossovers. So my muses decided to at least contribute. There will actually be a Michael and Lucifer meeting at some point, but I'm not sure when.
Don't tell me to finish watching Supernatural. I won't and you can't make me. (Other than maybe my own Team Free Will, but I haven't seen them in a while.)
I know Mikey appears in S5 of Lucifer and is pretty much as much of a jerk as in Supernatural. I'm not there yet, but I don't particularly care about spoilers. I'm definitely not going in that direction though. Obviously.
Yes, this is a stealth Buffy crossover, because many things are stealth Buffy crossovers. It doesn't matter a lot as technically yes, Xander is dead.
Also, it's recommended not to talk or think like Dean, because he has some seriously messed up ideas about gender.
I briefly toyed with using (UK?) rating system because it made more sense to me. I abandoned that because I'm still just flailing about in the dark either way.

Main Points:
Supernatural AU (now a Lucifer crossover!)
Summary: Having Michael on their side is an adjustment.
Word Count: 1545
Rating: Teen
Being that this is me, this is preslash with Dean/Michael (I like Dean/Cas but there's already enough of that written EDIT: that is insensitive to write now; I mean that I'm not good at writing it partly because I've seen just about half of canon so writing past that point is hard)

( conflicted feelings )

 

in non-news i may or may not have created a genderbended giorno (who may or may not have wolves named gucci and armani).  sources cannot confirm.  fun facts: theoretical gucci would totally rip pucci's throat out.  ending the world just ain't right, to quote mista on the matter.

consider this: supernatural, only with the whole Eva = Mary thing. dean's a dante on the road, struggling to come to terms with his whole demonic side, while sam's kind of embracing it in small ways. sam's less of a vergil analogue than he could be, mostly because he doesn't go quite that far, but there are parallels to their attitudes in 3.