madimpossibledreamer

It's October again, so time for this series to return again.  (also just that's how it worked out prewriting wise).

Main Points:
Star Trek (the 2009!movie verse)/Constantine crossover
Summary: Bones sees more than Kirk thinks--things like the fact that the love and attraction isn't a one-sided deal.  That Kirk is showing uncharacteristic restraint in holding back, because he thinks he'll break Bones, extra lives or not.  But he also sees things the wizard doesn't--like they're equally broken, equally likely to break each other, but also that it all might be worth it in the end.
Word Count: 500
Rating: Teen

( we both matter don't we? )

Main Points:
Buffy/Star Trek Crossover
Chapter Summary: Admiral Giles has good news for Captain Buffy.
Word Count: 415
Rating: Gen

( getting a ship and crew )

no new post for today, since I did one yesterday
((take that lord recluse we didn't even need 8 people
also why is coh not a tag before now wooow))
happy day of the dead!

if i didn't mention it before I'm pretty sure one of the npcs on bridge crew is voiced by the English VA for Kusanagi in Ghost in the Shell

so, if you think you've seen this before, or think you'll see it again, you're probably right on both accounts.  because this is a super important reminder.
sometimes I'll feel super unmotivated, writing.  sometimes i'll feel like my current chapter is trash or that I'm not good enough, as a writer.
and then i'll check my email and find someone's given my chapter a kudos (ao3) or that sunnydale herald continues to rec my stuff (that'll never stop making me smile) or whatever.
and then i'll remember that for however mediocre a current chapter is, or how the depression/anxiety voices try to weigh me down, or it feels like nobody's reading and i'm just sending words into an endless void...i haven't written the supernatural finale.  i haven't written captain america as a nazi.  i didn't write the devil may cry reboot, and i certainly haven't followed their "stellar pr example".  i didn't write the joss whedon avengers movies, or his failed wonder woman script.  i definitely am not the grand moff.  i'd like to think i write actual character arcs and plot arcs unlike the miraculous writers. 
i welcome my whole audience (except if you think other people don't deserve to have rights, get out, and may the door smack you on your way out).  i don't make fun of interpretations (okay, i haven't seen any, but even if i disagreed i would just say 'that wasn't intended' or OH NO THAT WASN'T INTENDED LET ME FIX THAT) or tell my audience they're seeing things. 
i don't write things so bad that a whole conspiracy coalesces around the utter failure that is that piece of writing.  i didn't write an offensive civil rights movement analogue that was meant to be a civil rights movement analogue until people said 'wait?? maybe that's in bad taste???' and then it wasn't a civil rights movement analogue and if you saw that you were crazy.  i try to go more complex and not just write off people particularly if they happen to be more villainous-coded, because, you know, subverting expectations with good writing is a good thing.  (also my brother who is awesome is slytherin, some of my best friends from college are slytherin and i like snakes, i don't know why you expected me to go anywhere else with that.  i'm not declaring the outcasts evil because that's just not cool.  also, i'm a hufflepuff so puffing up and fighting for the people i care for is a thing i do.)  i didn't turn james t kirk into the pop culture caricature everyone thought he was.  (and then he fought it anyway.  fight the good fight, buddy.) 
maybe i had some writing choices that weren't the best.  let's be honest, some of our taste when we were younger is terrible.  and sometimes we love terrible things because nothing's perfect and picking through the leavings of terribly written stories or badly mangled stories or a no man's land of isms or good idea poor execution stories that make us weep in frustration for the better show/book/game that we all collectively hallucinated along the way is all we have.  but we should also take heart that we made it better.  we're not just dreamers, because we see the flaws, and we bring them up not to tear others down but to remind ourselves of the pitfalls, we bring them up because these are conversations worth having, we bring them up because love this stuff and we want to analyze that the writers did so good but they let us down here, and how? why?
anyway, reminding yourself of all the terrible writing decisions that have been made in things you love, and also reminding yourself that you are doing everything you can to avoid writing such things, does wonders for your self-esteem as a writer.  also, when you mess up, there's always editing.  and like a responsible author you do sit down, go 'wait, i should change this' or, if someone told you, 'wait, they're right', edit it, and there you go.  and your interpretation is not wrong, and you should not feel bad for engaging in the text because people go to school to learn to do what you're doing, and you're all important.

edit: i don't want to take out the stuff with harry potter because I don't want to erase history and to some extent want to leave it as a screw you rowling.  anybody in any house with any decency would tear down your precious status quo, and yes, your pedestal with it.  but to continue with the theme: i didn't write 'slavery is okay with the right owners, maybe' and 'most fat people are evil' and 'being ultrafeminine or having masculine features is also a sign of evil in female characters'.  i also didn't turn out to be a massive piece of shit.  so this makes me happier about even my worst writing.  and yes, there are bits i'm not happy with.  several in self-made hero, actually, but even then i don't think i've ever failed as badly as rowling, or whedon, or the grand moff, or astruc, or nick spencer.  and as horrible as that is, as a writer that's a comforting thought.  i'll reiterate, though--please, when i make a mistake, tell me!  i want to improve, unlike these jerks.

“Your opinion of this court’s legitimacy is irrelevant.” That’s why contempt of court exists.

…please have his prosecutor ex here that would be amazing they don’t even have to be exes in this version just please please please

“He claims to be this man” and the original Khan.  Goodo.

Oh Kirk actually directly says ‘you’re not Khan’.  Again, more interesting than the movie.

I kinda thought the Eugenics Wars were kinda a side effect of a Gattaca-style designer baby thing, but.  I can see this.

…is that legit a picture in the background?

Nah, I think he’s at least—partially—telling the truth.

I also thought they fought each other, though that might be the ambition thing.

Are you actually Alexander Newton?  Cause you look like him.

Khan the best ruler?  That sounds a little propaganda to me.

Ah, and the first wife, Sanjay.

Hey, malik.  I’d never heard that name before Prince of Persia and then suddenly I’m hearing it everywhere.

There’s “John”, though pretending you’re his best friend is gonna be a problem, Marcus.

Best surgeon?  Boyce?

Okay, he’s got amnesia, so it might work for a bit, but.

…sulu?  Are you related to our sulu?

Someone else’s memories?  You have my interest.

“Convince me.”  Yes, good

Okay, that makes that bonehead move actually make sense.

…facial reconstruction?  Really?  I mean, I guess it works, but.  (& is technically what happened, givn the whitewashing stuff.)

And Kirk noticed the stuff I did, and goes through the logic and emotion of it.  Seriously.  The original’s still better, but.

…an actual ship named the HMS Enterprise.  Really?

…your ancestor talks like Bones.  Okay.

Look, he’s not sailing alone.  He’s got people to look out for him.

Engineering is: understanding how things work.  Figuring out what makes them not work.  Fixing that.  the actual approach may differ but the workflow is the same.  (I mean, that’s what Xander Knight says, so.)

Ah, there’s your problem.  Don’t mess with the dog.

…I want to see Keenser playing the bagpipes.

Well, that’s one way to do it.

Well, I didn’t come in here for romance, but I like that it’s still more about the characterization than the actual romance…IDK, sometimes romance comes off as voyeuristic and that feels a little slimy.

Wow.  Okay, kinda tragic backstory, but it happens.  Things go wrong, and in space that can go very wrong.  I’m sorry, but I’m also impressed.

So.  It helps if you hit *post* on your writing.  /sheepish
~Dreamer~

Main Points:
Star Trek (the 2009!movie verse) Dialogue!fic
Summary: What it says on the tin.
Word Count: 35
Rating: Teen?

          “Damn it, Jim, I’m a doctor, not a bed.”
          “Could’ve fooled me.  You’re pretty comfortable.  ‘Sides, this way you can check on me any ol’ time you like and you don’t even have to move.”

on star trek: the next generation (written at the time before I'd finished the season, though given that I haven't made it far into the second shows how interested I really am in the end)
My issues, thus far, are that the first few episodes were awful, Picard, thus far, is a bit too military/authoritarian for my taste, nobody listens to anyone aboard this ship, especially not anyone with information that might help, there are no shifts, which make a bigger ship than the original feel even smaller, which makes the bridge crew actually more important except Worf's gotten maybe fifteen minutes of screen time, 13 of which was getting beat up or a cold, Yar and Dr. Crusher have little to no personality most of which is cliches, and the bridge essentially looks like a large carpeted room that's had some chairs stuffed in.  And Q.  Q is annoying.  He's like Gabriel (supernatural) without a sense of humor.  If you have a sense of humor and can laugh at yourself, even the worst personalities can be fine.  If you don't?  You're insufferable and I hope you die you waste of space.  (well, maybe not that far, unless you're a powerful alien wanting to wipe entire species off the board with a single thought, in which case I take nothing back.)
(I am looking forward to the Borg.  There were a few good episodes.  I have the feeling it gets good with the Borg.)

i watch star trek for the theoretical discussions that follow.  a little bit the awesome people/actions on screen, but mostly the theoretical discussions.