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Feb. 17th, 2019 11:08 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
madimpossibledreamerPersonality-wise, I'm mostly like a combination of Jotaro (no-nonsense, you've-got-a-receipt buddy, complete and utter goof [come on, those one-liners!] and nerd [marine biology yo]) and Yugi (can't we all just get along, I'd rather be nice to people, I can be a ferocious attack puppy when my friends are in danger but most of the time I'd probably need to get Yami or Kaiba to help), but there's a few things from Yosuke that really resonate with me.
I do like dancing games, and music, and games in general. And I'm really, really worried that I'll end up working at a retail store for the rest of my life. It's not that I hate it, or he does--like me, he seems to be really good at being professional when he's not goofing off (i.e. that awesome, dumb sales voice he uses on Chie when trying to 'sell' her TVs wayyyy back at the beginning of Persona 4), and people being unprofessional (we lied on our applications about our availability but you better make it work!) annoy him (and me), and he does seem to generally like helping people and making them happy, even if it's all because he's (we're) extremely lonely (but, y'know, making someone's day a bit brighter or being able to solve a problem for them and having them thank you is just...it feels good, and not just from a selfish perspective). But then there are those people--the Housewives of Inaba who won't stop being catty and dragging your day down. Accidentally knocking over a display and having to pick it up. That one customer that won't stop being a pain in the ass and yelling, even if there are regulations that if you ignore you could get in trouble, or your store could get in trouble. And even then, having to put on a happy face and never showing when you're having a bad day too and having conversations sometimes about things you really don't care about...it's exhausting.
And we're both terrified that we'll be stuck in retail, unable to escape. If you asked me before I graduated, I'd tell you I knew exactly where I'd end up, that I'd have a job in my major within a month at the most. Now I'm Yosuke with that blank school job questionnaire thingie, trying desperately to stay positive when it feels like the world is falling apart and I don't have my own Persona or personal Souji. It sucks, man. (Oddly enough, it's also maybe one of the most realistic things I've seen in fiction in a while, though that might just be that it's what resonates with me personally. IDK.)
(Also, it's interesting: I looked it up and found that apparently orange isn't as intense as red, but it's still a high energy, optimistic color, and I've ended up with that as my second favorite color after Persona 4 and I honestly think it's the optimism that I was looking for. Weird association things.)
...Then again, this depression, maybe it's my Shadow, and maybe I have to fight it. So there's that.
I do like dancing games, and music, and games in general. And I'm really, really worried that I'll end up working at a retail store for the rest of my life. It's not that I hate it, or he does--like me, he seems to be really good at being professional when he's not goofing off (i.e. that awesome, dumb sales voice he uses on Chie when trying to 'sell' her TVs wayyyy back at the beginning of Persona 4), and people being unprofessional (we lied on our applications about our availability but you better make it work!) annoy him (and me), and he does seem to generally like helping people and making them happy, even if it's all because he's (we're) extremely lonely (but, y'know, making someone's day a bit brighter or being able to solve a problem for them and having them thank you is just...it feels good, and not just from a selfish perspective). But then there are those people--the Housewives of Inaba who won't stop being catty and dragging your day down. Accidentally knocking over a display and having to pick it up. That one customer that won't stop being a pain in the ass and yelling, even if there are regulations that if you ignore you could get in trouble, or your store could get in trouble. And even then, having to put on a happy face and never showing when you're having a bad day too and having conversations sometimes about things you really don't care about...it's exhausting.
And we're both terrified that we'll be stuck in retail, unable to escape. If you asked me before I graduated, I'd tell you I knew exactly where I'd end up, that I'd have a job in my major within a month at the most. Now I'm Yosuke with that blank school job questionnaire thingie, trying desperately to stay positive when it feels like the world is falling apart and I don't have my own Persona or personal Souji. It sucks, man. (Oddly enough, it's also maybe one of the most realistic things I've seen in fiction in a while, though that might just be that it's what resonates with me personally. IDK.)
(Also, it's interesting: I looked it up and found that apparently orange isn't as intense as red, but it's still a high energy, optimistic color, and I've ended up with that as my second favorite color after Persona 4 and I honestly think it's the optimism that I was looking for. Weird association things.)
...Then again, this depression, maybe it's my Shadow, and maybe I have to fight it. So there's that.
