madimpossibledreamer

This is just uploading a bunch of previously written stuff. My muses are being severely uncooperative. I'll beat them into submission with a wet noodle should that be necessary, though, so stay tuned.

(EDIT: Somehow I uploaded this twice. I'm fixing that now. Wouldn't have even noticed if I hadn't somehow added both of them to memories and only just now noticed. What I'll do is I'll merge the two, as much as possible, and delete the newer one.)

Main Points:
Haruhi Suzumiya AU
Chapter Summary: Uhhh, non-spoilery. Give me a moment. ... Kyon's hurt, and trying to work through what happened. It being Haruhi Suzumiya, it's hard.
Summary from Second Posting: Kyon realizes something and kind of rambles for a while. Really, it's kind of freeform and hard to describe. But I think I got his voice down which is cool.
Word Count: 713
Rating: K
Note: I haven't read/watched everything, so this is probably non-canon compliant.

I'm honestly kind of surprised that I took ceasing to exist so well. Then again, dealing with espers, time travelers, alien robots, alternate dimensions, alterations to this dimension, giant monsters, and a goddess who isn't aware she's a goddess (or so Koizumi keeps assuring me—not the she's not aware part, because that's certainly true, but the goddess part) on a daily basis or close to a daily basis probably helped prepare me for this moment.

Having your existence negated is a lot like dying. It's certainly about as painful—and yes, I'm probably one of the few people who can actually say that. My memory's fuzzy after both, for one thing.

I'm not sure who brings me back normally, but it's probably Nagato. Koizumi doesn't have enough power to do anything unless he's in a Closed Space, and I don't think his powers include resurrection when he is there. I could be wrong, since I'm not part of the weird Organization or anything. And dear, sweet Asahina...she doesn't have any powers, per say. Equipment to travel back from the future, and knowledge that comes from being from the future, and manipulating events—that's the older one, not the younger one of our time—yes. But the only way she'd have to bring me back would be to travel back and stop me from getting in trouble in the first place. Or, I suppose, getting into an alternate timestream, if that's a thing. I'd ask, but I'd only get a 'That's classified', potentially with a smile or giggle depending on how serious that question is.

For once, the situation isn't Haruhi Suzumiya's fault. She's not even indirectly involved, other than as an observer. I'm not even sure that she'll remember any of that. Pause, and let the surprise sink in, because I know I'm shocked. I know she brought me back, or altered the world so I didn't die or disappear or something, but that's the only thing she did, and that's probably because watching me die or the trial or whatever it was she actually did see was traumatizing. I'm also confused as to why I'm so sure none of this is because she got bored or wanted to make the world (or at least my life) any more interesting or more tortuous or anything along those lines, but I am, and my instincts are so sure they tell me not to even question them. For once, I don't argue. I just sit back and go along with it, because really, what other choice do I have?

Of course, it doesn't help that I'm also dying at this point. Somebody went heavy on the overkill this time. I can't help the clumsy stagger. If I put a hand to my stomach this time, I know all I'd come away with is a bloodstained hand and a pretty big reminder of my mortality. I managed to escape. A trial. Haruhi Suzumiya, Ace Attorney...

Guilty. But no, the trial didn't happen, and I...it never happened, because I was stabbed...

Did I get a guilty verdict in absentia? Was I not careful enough?

Did she bring me back wrong?

Why can't I remember what really happened?

And what's all this about a trial, anyway? Sometimes I remember, but I keep forgetting…

I'm pretty sure the previous day was normal and everything, and I'd actually go into all that detail, but I'm having issues remembering it.

Things that never happened keep flashing through my mind, and it's getting harder to remember I'm Kyon. No, John Smith. That's my real name, believe it or not, but no one ever remembers it.

No one will even remember Kyon.

I managed to escape, but escape what? And I had a message. A warning, really. I mean, someone...

Someone knew who I was. I wish they would've filled me in before stabbing me. I mean, I sometimes feel sure, but I'm losing it. I'm losing myself. And then sometimes I'm sure I'm someone else, too, and sometimes I can't remember anything at all.

And they're going after Haruhi Suzumiya. My friend. My...evil overlord, maybe? I don't know what to do, besides warn her. They're trying to...they're trying to...

I fell. I can't stay here. I've got to get up. Not...safe.....