I have a lot of feelings about this episode, okay? Because 90% of the people blame Xander for it. They just seem to see it as Xander not manning up, but they ignore the whole vision thing. It might have been a little while since I've seen it, but I seem to remember that the episode wasn't even declarative on whether or not that vision was fake or not (and even if it was fake, it was a very real possibility at least to Xander!)
Xander saw himself become his father. An abusive, drunken bastard, broken and hurting and hurting everyone else, too. So he made the decision to prevent that future, even if it kills him, even if it hurts Anya, because it will protect her in the long run.
Xander, like Tony, will sacrifice himself, because, let's get real, despite anything he might say he doesn't see himself as being worthwhile or worth anything.
Probably due to his family. But there's some of Cap's old-fashioned heroism in there, too. He can't watch people suffer, can't just stand on the sidelines. (Then again, realistic!MCU!soldier-with-PTSD Cap also
has self-esteem issues. For both Tony and Steve it boils down to: I am a soldier, I am a weapon, better me than them, they deserve to live, and, under their breath, I don't
Xander's desire to protect the ones he loves at any cost just gets magnified when coupled with the issues of several different Tony Starks, and as many things in their lives it goes boom.
Buffy the Vampire Slayer/Iron Man Crossover (Self-Made Hero)
Summary: Xander Harris's wedding day didn't go well. Xander Jesse Knight's was worse
Word Count: 755
Rating: Gen, ANGST
Note: contains alcohol abuse that is likely to get worse
in the next chapter. This one's not light, people.
( let you down )